Gloomy days

taken with a disposable camera during company trip to fraser island 20/12/08

Hello world, this is me, fading away, turning grey.
Still alil catty, still alil impatient, still alil whingy, still myself.
A whole lot more boring, still me nonetheless. :)

My life still revolves around work, missing my loved ones,
and yearning for my old carefree lifestyle.
I miss all my girls, especially my pig whose in neverneverland.
All the way in uk, where I can never afford to visit. :(
Someday, I will walk out of my boring routine,
and have the courage to live as a struggling wanderer.
In actual fact, work isn't as bad as I've portrayed it.
It's challenging, keeps my brain active, my pocket full, and I sincerely do have fun.
I guess a part of me will always refuse to let go of my youthful days,
which holds a big part of me forever.

It's amazing how different life is once you grow up.
Big and tall people now seem so much smaller and fragile.
Adulthood is just so different from what you've pictured it to be.
My fear of losing my loved ones seem to grow rapidly and significantly.
You never satisfy everyone you love anymore.

I think, I'm actually afraid to grow up, afraid to lose my loved ones.
Maybe I'm just feeling emotional.
I know I'm always this way when I write.
But writing is my only outlet as I don't express my feelings verbally no more.

Tomorrow will be a better day,
and I will be my goofy and happy self again.
Till then, let me drown my sorrows and engulf myself in an emotional state for now.

Tomorrow, will be a better day.

Dearest bigbadwolf,

Happy Six Years Anniversary to Us

Six years of jamesharon, still plenty more eternity lovin' to come. :)

YShaz

Splash away the blues

It's so refreshing diving into the water, splashing around, feeling calm and unnerved again. Been feeling the pressure and frustration taking its toll on me. I feel so restrained and limited, sigh, the choices you are forced to make in life. How do you know which path to walk on or what is right or wrong. Why are there no guidelines or life manuals provided? Sometimes I feel like a blindfolded woman forced to take on a path. As I struggle my way towards the end, I get pricked and prodded on, I trip and I fall, yet I still continue to walk even though I dont know how ardous or long my journey will be. What is it that keeps me going?

Determination, or really, denial or false hope?

What is it with me...

i feel so

i feel so


...maybe it's high time for vacation.

Fatboyslim

While browsing through some photos I uploaded to my lappy the other day...

him: hey hey, scroll back again!
her: huh. *scrolls*

him: no, back! back!
her: which one? *what's on your mind monkey butt*

him: hey look!! i'm skinny! bwahahaha
her: HAHAHA!! lies hunny lies :D

so this was the picture he was refering to hehe.


Been having bbq for two weekends in a row now, look how cute and tiny the bbq set is!


Bigbadwolf's all time favourite, prawns, prawns and more prawns.


Everything tastes so good when you cook on this instead of the pan!


So what have I been up to? Work, catching up with friends during the weekends,

lazing and doing household chores. T_T Yes, my life has been so mundane.


Went to a friend's marriage registration a few weeks ago,


and also had to say goodbye to a girlfriend whose gone back to hong kong for good.

T_T why is everyone leaving!


All the best baby, looks like we'll need to start recruiting again, noo come back :(

Ashley is also going away during christmas hols, oh how I hate you baby! I'm going to be stuck in brissie trying to make the best of what's left here for me. So far, I've only got noosa and fraser island planned out, what's everyone else doing for christmas and new years?

p/s: dont complain pig, at least i've updated for you! ;P

The five minutes management course

Lesson 1
A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbour. Before she says a word, Bob says, 'I'll give you $800 to drop that towel.'

After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob, after a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves. The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, 'Who was that?'

'It was Bob the next door neighbour,' she replies.

'Great,' the husband says, 'did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?'

Moral of the story:
If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Lesson 2
A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?'

The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?'

The priest apologized 'Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.'

Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, 'Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.'

Moral of the story:
If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity.

Lesson 3
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out.
The Genie says, 'I'll give each of you just one wish.'

'Me first! Me first!' says the admin clerk. 'I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.' Puff! She's gone.

'Me next! Me next!' says the sales rep. 'I want to be in Hawaii , relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.' Puff! He's gone.

'OK, you're up,' the Genie says to the manager.

The manager says, 'I want those two back in the office after lunch.'

Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 4
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing?' The eagle answered: 'Sure, why not.'

So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 5
A turkey was chatting with a bull. 'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.'

'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.'

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough str ength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story:
Bull Shit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there..

Lesson 6
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.

The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
1. Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
2. Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3. And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!


THUS ENDS THE FIVE MINUTES MANAGEMENT COURSE
Pass this on to bright people who have enough sense of humour to take it. :)

uh uh uh uh stayin' alive, stayin' alive

whoooopsie, haven't been blogging in ages, anyone missed me?
i just don't seem to have the time and effort anymore.
my folks are here to visit, and my dearest papi has already come and gone.
i'm left here with my mummy and sis for one more week,
before everyone leaves lil ol shaz alone again.
sobs, goodbyes are what i dread most when people come to visit, im so bad with goodbyes.
was planning for a big vacation for end of the year but decided to cancel it now.
everything's so overpriced and my xmas hols aren't long enough.
i want to go to china, taiwan, bali, korea, japan, macao, malaysia or thailand again!
our economy has been a bitch, nothing is as easy no more.
if only work wasn't as stressful.
how i miss my carefree student life,
why oh why did i grow up so quickly?
i need someone to colour my life, why is my life so dull and mundane?
always rushing here and there, getting stuck in traffic, working against time,
i long for the life i had, those happy times travelling,
sleeping in, relaxing and doing things on impulse.

oh how i miss walking on sunshine.

Infatuation

no matter what i do, all i think about is you

even when i'm with my boo, boy you know i'm crazy over you~

wow times like these have long been gone for me.

i can still reminisce the times when i've been goo goo ga ga over someone :)

...tis a magical feeling isn't it?

My 22nd Birthday

Pictures speak a thousand words so I'll just let the photos do majority of the talking.

I tried my best to arrive as late as I could so I wouldn't have to get so drunk.

In the end I still had to have one glass of beer each with most of the people in the room.

This is the first time sweetie mama came back to the scene as well haha, much appreciated babe!

I tried to take as many photos as I could so I don't have to drink so much as well haha!

Drinking, singing, playing, and photos = bliss.

When the clock struck 12, thank you everyone for the cakes, loved it heaps, yummy yummy.

I forgot to make a wish because I was so excited and nervous. Excited because it was my birthday, nervous because I had to face the jug soon.. ;P

Bigbadwolf had to finish cutting the cake for me because his birthday's next, some chinese tradition.

Oh man, and the annual routine begins. Mummy close your eyes hehe!

Obviouly I wouldn't be able to finish that! It's too big!! All the girls helped out hehe love you all! :P

The jug was passed back to me again and I had to finish what I could... until it all came out ew..

Bigbadwolf cleaned out the jug afterwards for me hehe.

Bigbadwolf had to give me a birthday kiss due to peer pressure haha. :P

Thanks patrick for taking most of the photos, you the man valentino jose (he keeps insisting that this is his new name -_- ).

I ended up drinking and drinking again, and eating lotsa chicken wings as well haha. That's all folks, the others are too embarrassing to be put up over here. You can see the rest on my msn space.. cheerios :)

Happy Birthday to Me...

Attendees: Shaz, Bigbadwolf, Yenyen, Ruby, Fiona, Sally, Celine, Ashley, Cathy, Carrie, Elise, Hazel, Zoe, Alice, Yuki, Katy, Christine, Francis, Taylor, Desmond, Jack, Allen, Alan, Brian, Patrick, Rocky.
(I hope I didn't miss anyone...)

Thank you to all of you for coming and for all the efforts you've all put in to make my day. Photos will be updated as soon as I get some free time on my hands. I love you all, I'm on cloud nine because of you. I feel so blessed to be me right now, I don't usually feel this way you know hehe. :)

Here's a little preview for now.



Stay tuned for more lovin'Y

Baby Making

Got this in my mailbox from bigbadwolf, there is not one dirty word in it and it is hilarious!

The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife goodbye and said, 'Well, I'm off now. The man should be here soon.'

Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer happened to ring the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. 'Good morning, Ma'am', he said, 'I've come to...'

'Oh, no need to explain,' Mrs. Smith cut in, embarrassed, 'I've been expecting you.'

'Have you really?' said the photographer. 'Well, that's good. Did you know babies are my specialty?'

'Well that's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat'.

After a moment she asked, blushing, 'Well, where do we
start?'

'Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch, and perhaps a couple on the bed. And sometimes the living room floor is fun. You can really spread out there.'

'Bathtub, living room floor? No wonder it didn't work out for Harry and me!'

'Well, Ma'am, none of us can guarantee a good one every time. But if we try several different positions and I shoot from six or seven angles, I'm sure you'll be pleased
with the results.'

'My, that's a lot!', gasped Mrs. Smith.

'Ma'am, in my line of work a man has to take his time. I'd love to be In and out in five minutes, but I'm sure you'd be disappointed with that.'

'Don't I know it,' said Mrs. Smith quietly.

The photographer opened his briefcase and pulled
out a portfolio of his baby pictures. 'This was done on the top of a bus,' he said.

'Oh, my God!' Mrs. Smith exclaimed, grasping at her throat.

'And these twins turned out exceptionally well - when you consider their mother was so difficult to work with.'

'She was difficult?' asked Mrs. Smith.

'Yes, I'm afraid so. I finally had to take her to the park to get the job done right. People were crowding around four and five deep to get a good look'

'Four and five deep?' said Mrs. Smith, her eyes wide with amazement.

'Yes', the photographer replied. 'And for more than three hours, too. The mother was constantly squealing and yelling - I could hardly concentrate, and when darkness approached I had to rush my shots. Finally, when the squirrels began nibbling on my equipment, I just had to pack it all in.'

Mrs. Smith leaned forward. 'Do you mean they actually chewed on your, uh...equipment?'

'It's true, Ma'am, yes.. Well, if you're ready, I'll set-up my tripod and we can get to work right away.'
'Tripod?'

'Oh yes, Ma'am. I need to use a tripod to rest my Canon on. It's much too big to be held in the hand very long.'

Mrs. Smith fainted.

My Golden Set

Alberta Ferretti Chain Embellished Dress
Baby Phat Ellen (Gold/White Logo)Women's Shoes
Alex Monroe Original Sin Heart Locket
D&G Gold Bangles

Now you know what a girl does when she's not out shopping, sigh.

Taggety Tag

Tagged by YenYen

1.Real name - Norahs Oos Neihc Nat
2.Nickname - shaz, sharzie, shazza, sha, sha sha, pig, babe, xue ren.
3.Married - no, i can't bear to leave my family just yet Y
4.Male or Female - female
5.Highschool - maz international school, loreto college.
6.University - university of canberra
7.Short or long hair - long straight hair, at the moment i feel like getting soft wavy curls
8.Are you a health freak - sadly i'm only a health freak wannabe
9.Height - 168cm
10.Do you have a crush on someone - lor kar leung
11.Do you like yourself - i think so :p
12.Piercings - 5
13.Righty or Lefty - i'm a hardkore chopstick fighting lefty

FIRST'S

14. First surgery - nearly, but thankfully no
15. First piercing(s) - i think i was between 10-12 years old
16. First person you see in the morning - my colleagues during week days, bigbadwolf on the weekend.
17. First award - Grade 2 - backstroke swimming
18. First sport you joined - swimming
19. First pet - i cant remember my first puppy's name! only had her for a while and the volcano erupted in Rabaul. I was so stupid to feed her and lock her up in the cage when we left, omg keel me! I didn't know that we weren't going back home again T_T
20. First vacation - papua new guinea? haha high five yen
21. First concert - moffats in kl cringes pink in kl

CURRENTLY

23. Eating - just got back from pine and bamboo. had beijing duck, steamed silver perch and yummy quails with the relos
24. Drinking - wintermelon tea
25. I'm about to - sleep, will continue with this tomorrow.

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids - i want twins, but don't have the genes :(
27. Want to get married - yes, but not so soon.
28. Careers in mind - doing business development at the moment, i'd like to push myself to learn as much as i can and hopefully own a successfull business with my partner in the near future fingerscrossed hehe.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes - if you're talking about my love it has gotta be both :p
30. Hugs or kisses - xoxo
31. Shorter or taller - definitely taller than me please
32. Romantic or spontaneous - i'm a sucker for romance
33. Sensitive or loud - loud
34. Trouble maker or hesitant - trouble maker, i love good bad boys hehe

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger - no
36. Drank bubbles - if you mean champagne, yes.
37. Lost glasses/contacts - no
38. Ran away from home - only in my head
39. Liked someone younger - hehe yes, he was kinda cute back then.
40. Liked someone older - of course, look where i am now =.=
41. Broken someone's heart - hopefully not :)
42. Been arrested - :O arrest me!
43. Cried when someone died - yes
44. Liked a friend - yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself - yes, but i got to rid my procrastination
46. Miracles - i try to
47. Heaven - yes
48. Santa claus - i want my future hubby to be my children's santa claus!
49. Angels - sometimes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now - not just one, many of them ;(
51. Do you believe in God - yes
52. Tag 5 people - whatever, whoever is fine. omg its 8.30pm and i'm already drunk over 2 bottles of red with my uncle and cousin... to sleep in or not to sleep in.... that is the question of the day.

找不到自己...

好期待以前的生活﹐
以前開朗又活潑的自己。
為什麼人總是需要長大呢?
長大後有好多苦惱好多事情都要擔心。
上中學時﹐要擔心OP﹐
上大學時﹐要擔心GPA﹐
上班後﹐要擔心拿的到好的薪水﹐
薪水負了又要擔心能儲蓄多少﹐
儲蓄後又要擔心怎麼用錢去發展。
我的天啞﹐跟本就是擔心不完啦!
還是一步一步來﹐
不要去想那麼多好了。
反正擔心不擔心還是要一樣走這條路。
我希望自己能開開心心的過生活﹐
不要每天都煩著一些有的沒有的事情。
嗯﹐北比們﹐我們都要一起加油﹐
一起努力為自己去開心的生活。
加油加油, 我們一定行的!
Y